Life is getting a little frustrating at the moment... it feels like we're going around and around the exact same mountain; week after week, month after month, year after year.
I am over it.
I want change - good change, needed change, happy change (money-change to, if I am being honest).
I don't know whether it is end-of-year-itis, over-tired-fried Mummy brain, bored-with-life-want-to-make-a-change brain OR anything really... I'm just over it all right now.
BUT - don't stop here, it will get better; I'm just setting the scene for you!
However, lately the phrase 'Bloom where you are planted...' keeps coming to mind. Little things people have said, words I have been hearing over Rhema (radio station), blog posts as well (Sophie over at Little Gumnut wrote a post on Being Inconvenienced recently, and basically how good things take time).
Everything keeps pointing me back to 'blooming - right here, right now'! I think that is going to have to be my phrase for next year; but I can start the ball rolling, get the momentum going now... hopefully making next year a little easier to settle into.
One of the (ahem - many) things I bemoan, is the lack of friends I have here... I have found that trying to socialise and entertain with little people, is actually really difficult for me. Some (most) people seem to just take it in their stride - but I can't, I am just not a multi-tasker; it's either the kids or it's socialising, I simply can't do both very well.
It's quite freeing knowing this, and it's quite freeing sharing this with you... it is something I have really doubted myself in for years; thinking I am just not capable. No, it's not that at all - it's just not strength of mine, and that is okay! Once the kids get older (and they are getting to a good age now), I'll do better as I won't have to be trying to focus on them every single minute; but for now I know my limits and I will stick within them. A little at a time, learning as we go!
Anyway - the point is, one of the area's I feel myself being challenged in is hospitality... I/we used to have people over a lot, generally for supper or some other rather non-threatening meal due to my 'lack' of kitchen skills; but all this faded once the kids arrived. So these next twelve months are going to be about learning to bloom - in spite of my perceived circumstances. Life is not perfect, there will always be a 'reason' to not entertain / do housework / further my education etc; you fill in the blanks.
Area's I want to bloom in:
- Entertaining more at home, and going out more... just generally putting myself out there; come what may.
- More committed to my blogging; there is a new challenge in the wind, more to come later.
- Trying new things in the kitchen.
- Being more organised: green cleaning, frugality, budget and saving, whole food cooking / eating, menu planning. I am doing better in a lot of these area's already, but there is a vast room for improvement still!
- Using my time more wisely.
But I think for me, the biggest thing is the putting myself out there more... swallowing my pride and just offering to help others out, have others over, and asking / inviting myself around to others places.
What are planning on focusing on next year? Have you thought that far ahead yet?