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The One Year Mark...

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Dear Dad,
I know I didn't acknowledge the one year of your passing as I have with previous milestones... life had got too busy; we were only a few days off flying out to Hawaii for our first holiday without the children, and it was chaos. I know you wouldn't have wanted your memories to be the cause of more stress; you were always putting yourself last.
However, you were not forgotten - even if I didn't write about it on here... We arranged and hosted an afternoon tea in your honour with all your favourite food, and had the family over, together with Uncle Max & Aunty Wendy.
There is a theme here; cream and liquorice!
We watched the slideshow we'd put together for your funeral, together with the funeral photos, and listened to the songs we'd chosen for you... it was very touching, and this is what I wrote in my journal just afterwards:
"It's just over the one year since Dad passed & I have yet to write about it or put a poem together - but that is ok. W…

Happy Heavenly Birthday Dad

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Dear Dad,
It is your first birthday without us; your first heavenly birthday... the last few days have seen me thinking back and remembering this time last year. From April onwards things went so fast, but your birthday was spent with you – not as much as I would have liked, but we got to present you with a beautiful family portrait, a collection of memories from Christmas 2016. It is a picture I still treasure, and we need to get it framed as well; still haven’t managed to do this (typical)... I don’t think any of us had any real idea just how ill you were by then, and how quickly time would take you – I am glad we didn’t know then, I think it would have broken my heart; just knowing it was your last birthday with us was enough to deal with on that day.


Last year was spent with you, trying to take in everything about you for future memories – future days without you; this year your birthday is probably going to be spent discussing headstones, memorials and other such cold, hard facts.…

My Inspiration

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With today being Valentines Day and all; I thought I would share a little bit of my inspiration with you...
These two...
These two are my why, my inspiration, my reason, and everything in between... they are who get me up in the morning, and heading off to work each day; they are whom I cook for, clean for, work hard for, tidy up for, celebrate for. They are my reason for this life - not for life in general, but for THIS life; right here, right now. I would imagine, that if we'd chosen not to have children for whatever reason - we wouldn't be here, doing what we're doing. But they need stability, love and a home; so we are giving them that, all the while chasing our dreams the best way we can in this moment. It is not a sacrifice - it is the life we want right now, and I am confident we're doing the best we can for them. 
So with that in mind; when I was flicking through an old scribble book of mine the other day, I discovered an old poem I had written for my daughter whe…